Got a decent start

I've read the books, scoured the internet, tried vegan, paleo, atkins and caloric "life styles" and have a pretty good idea of what I'm going to do.  My current plan is a modified paleo, modified because I just cannot confront the idea of no dairy.  Paleo is my top pick because it eliminates nearly all sugar, especially from starchy grains that convert to glucose (sugar).  I also find it easier to follow with more recipes available online.  I'm also focusing on keeping my calories low which is just basic common sense. Weight loss is achieved by expending more calories then you're bringing in and while I like paleo because it's easier to follow, it's also easy to consume a lot of calories.  My target is 1500 calories per day, with a near complete elimation of sugar.  If I had the backbone I'd get rid of dairy too but dear lord I love cheese and butter.

I skipped breakfast mainly because I didn't feel like cooking but I did have a cup of coffee with half'n'half (30 calories).

Lunch was a bit of a cheat with a cheeseburger (268 calories), just made sure to skip the french fries.

Dinner was wild black rice cooked in beef broth and coated in butter, white chicken breasts stir fried in a curry spice blend and a large side of steamed broccoli also coated in butter (715 calories).

Admittedly this was not paleo but I'm easing into this slowly.

That's 1320 calories for the day, so had I not skipped breakfast I still had 240 to spare for some scrambled eggs or whatnot.  I'm under the recommended protien amount but just barely, and only ate a total of 17 grams of sugar for the whole day.

I'm using a fitness app MyFitnessPal which is working for now.

parden my ugly dinner shot

What I wish I'd known

Diabetes, sleep apnea, adrenal fatigue, asthma, food allergies, constant heartburn, reproductive issues, pain, cramping and all the emotions that follow along.  Putting my last 35 years under a microscope I see things now that led to my situation. I grew up on a fruit farm that liberally used pesticides, had undiagnosed sleep apnea since childhood, and a genetic predisposition to metobolic problems.  Lack of understanding in nutrition and a deep soulful love of pasta dug the hole deeper.  The ticking time bomb finally got loud enough I had to listen. 

So tomorrow it starts.  I refuse to call this a resolution because I'm way too commitment shy to be resolute about anything.  This is a game.  The obstacle is how much I love fatty, sugary, starchy, food. The first target is June, my first born is graduating highschool and I want to not hurt while sitting in that chair watching him receive his diploma.  The prize is my life and being allowed to keep it.

So tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow...effing tomorrow. The plan is to take this one week at a time and to not use that awful D word...DIET.  Of course diets don't work, it literally has the word die in it. Who needs that kind of forshadowing?!?!